minarai's blog

So, when a period of your life comes to an end, you feel this sense of loss, but at the same time there are all these open doors in front of you. how to make a decision? which is the right door?

how many people are in ths situation right now... you look at your life, and it seems to be unique. Nobody experiences the same things you do, nobody goes through the same problems. yet, everywhere the problems, the people, the reactions, are, eventually the same. And when you realize it, the urge to make a move somehow decreases.

 

separation is painful. but you learn a lot about yourself. You learn to make up your mind, to place order into your thought. The first time you go through it, it's really shit. It's the first time that you take a decision that involves a second person in such a close manner. And if you are someone who does not want to hurt the person you have been loving for three years, you end up not being able to say a word. And that hurts even more than speaking, but you don't know it. You don't understand it until it's too late...

I want to find someone who knows what is good for me, somebody who knows what is in my head, and can understand it. I wanto to find this somebody in myself.